The sky is still up, and the ground is still down

Today I went through the realization stage, the part where I realize that life goes on and that no matter how terrible I feel/felt, life goes on. Haha this feels like in middle school when they explained the grieving stages especially used in literature. I'm actually evaluating myself on this. Everyone deals with things differently, but everyone at one point, feels the same. At the moment I feel like I'm going to be sick, seeing that I had 'eat whatever the hell you want' day and I had (some) brownies hehe. Ofc that sucks cause now I feel about myself. And Abigail's licking her fingers uuuuuuurrrgghhhh >.< How well there's always treadmill.