hafta rewrite this one.

Here's the partly good news! Caroline is, in fact coming here. As far as I know she'll be staying at my house, rather than Ellen's which is really good news. I don't know what we'll do, now that I'll be homeschooling. Haha yes, my house is a typical American school. I wonder if it would pass for one?
I can't bring myself to finish my story now. I fucked up big time and every time I read the words from that story I can't deal. I started a new one with a completely different subject, but I doubt it will fly. Rather it will crash in an ocean of confused words and jumbled phrases, and there, it will drown and die away in my notebook. It's about a girl who's trying to deal with the fact that her mother has died of cancer and that within four months of her death her father has remarried and ignores her. The girl's big brother is away at college, and when he's home, he is reckless. I don't know what it's about, really. Probably some girl trying to deal with her fears and emotions. Can you say Cliche? They say that when one reads a book, a lot of the writer's emotions and feelings are engraved in the story. I can see that with my own story. I choose very, very bad ways to deal with my grief and for that I'm sorry to my family and to myself. I wasn't forgiven for what I did, and I guess I have to just live with that fact. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.