Another day, lost and happy in reality :)

I barely slept last night, but that's fine with me. I went to school today for the first time in...eight days? Including the weekend, of course. I rather missed my friends, and they missed me too. Everyone hugged me :P I was nervous that things would be strange, but everything was almost normal, and when I say everything I mean everything. I write this with a smile. I'm so glad for everything in my life right now. It's a feeling of lightness, but underneath it all is that unsteady nervousness, dwelling in my stomach, pulling worriedly at my sides. But this time I know I have done nothing wrong. Perhaps it will pass with time. I know deep down that all I must do is relax.I do not want time to pass. The time I have for the rest of this year is as precious as gold to me. More valuable, in fact. If I was offered a ton of gold versus doing this year again I would opt for the second so I could learn to enjoy some things, and experience some things again. I want to live my life with no regrets. I know that takes a lot of work, but I'm determined that I can do that soon.
Alright, enough musing. I'm so tired at the moment and I have a lot of work to do tomorrow. I'll get up early and do a lot of homework, paint my bed, put together my bookshelf and paint that also, get Kathryn moved into my room and arrange it, and then maybe I'll have a chance to work on my story! I have less than a month and it's so important to me right now, ugh. Time just slips through my fingers and then it's gone. There is no getting it back, which is depressing. I will not have it that way, though. I will enjoy every moment for what it is. God, I am SO lame!