The worst feeling is having my heart break all over again. I don't know what I would do if it weren't for my friends. I was desperate, sitting with my back to the minivan's bumper, crying and trying to make sense of this mess that is my life. I called Cassi, and she came and got me. I'm so glad to have her in my life. I spent the evening laughing with her and Jordan instead of in my bed, staring at the ceiling and trying to convince myself to live. Austin has managed to break my heart again. How stupid I was, to believe his lies. He will never love me again. I need to learn that. So today I am full of spite and anger. He doesn't deserve my forgiveness, nor will I give it to him. In other news, I am allowed to return to school in the fall. I am even living in the dorms! It's exciting. I get to leave Cato. FINALLY. All my hard work has payed off. It's going to be a marvelous beginning, and I shall never, ever look back. Sadly, I have to repeat the semester, which I am embarrassed to admit, but still. I shall be a nurse yet. I am far too lazy to fix any other thoughts of mine here.