Chasing the Wind

Sometimes we sit forward in our chairs, so prepared to embrace life. Sometimes we forget that this is it.
That's how I've felt this week. Even though I failed miserably today, I did well for two days straight. That's a major accomplishment for me. I almost literally tackled Austin in school today, grinning like a fool. I gave him a huge hug, and I just couldn't stop smiling. He asked me what was going on, since Austin is well.. Austin in the morning. Tired, a bit disheveled, and not ready for my random spurts of hyper. I simply told him that he should be proud of me, and I suppose that was enough explanation for him. I doubt he had any idea what I was talking about, but it was okay.
I don't feel like he should be anymore, after my failure. I'm not miserable, and most of all, I'm not hopeless. I did well for two days! That means this time I'm going to do three.
I'm really hoping for a good weekend with Austin and Cassi.. and all the rest(: