pix...

Genereal Thunder and I hanging out. He sleeps in the Laundry. I love him so much, so I feed him tuna all the time so he gets fat.






Aaron, found here doing what he does best :)



Oda, or Charlotte, if you please. She's so cute, but she's a brat.


Emily, who just moved to Norway for at least a year. SOB.




Camille, or Mansa.







Sam, hyperactive. jk

quick not, guilt trip

i wish ppl would read my other blog, the one where i write, where i really care. ppl dont read it, or dont care to give me an opinion. please, if your going to read anything of mine, read my other blog and give me an opinion. go back a few pg's and start from the beginning! plz!!!!!!

pick myself up

better today. everything works out, i guess. i hope i have a few weeks until the next drop. i went skating again today. i love it. i plan on going tomorrow also. its nice. relaxing. its something where there arent too many ppl. sometimes i like being social but most of the time i like being with certain people. sometimes i like being alone so i can write and draw, but there are ppl who i love being around. i have only figured out a few of those ppl and im keeping silent.
im reading twilight. i wont state my opinion yet. ill just say that the only reason im forcing myself to rad it is so i can write a review. lol guess what i think?

craash

sigh. i was really manic b/f xmas. i knew the whole time i was going to crash. this sux. i hurt phisically and mentally. i cant do anything but lie on my floor and not think. i cant think. im not feeling srry 4 myself b/c theres nothing to be sad a bout. i just cant move. i cant think. il be ok. mayber tomorrow or the next day. usually during certain parts of the day i just get spells where i cant move, when im depressed.
when im manic im awesome and happy and i cant stop moving. (my foot) and i love it. but then bam. it hits hard and sometimes i cry. theres nothing i can do about it. i pray to god that he will help me to feel better and get up. i have faith in my heart that he'll hear me and help me. that's all i can do. theres nothing wrong really, it just happens, and i kno im not the only one hurting. so now. i just lie on my floor and not think. die. for now.

films

Aaron and I made some films today with his new camera. When they are finished I'll out a link up. They're quite entertaining.

xmas

ya xmas tday. im very happy w/ wat i got.

1.clothes. meh
2. Dream Theater shirt <3 <3 <3
3. random stuff from mom bears!!!
4.perfume, celine dion
5. learn japanese
6. the office board game
7. Rasphody of fire album <3!!!!
8. 8 gb sansa fuze, pink <3 (not a huge fan of pink, but meh)

Abigail and i were talking about getting our room bear themed. <3 xxx yea!

sno day

We have no skool again tday, thx 2 the bad weather. Tomorrow will be the last day until x-mas vacation. yay. x-mas 4 me, get's less and less exciting. i wish it was summer or spring. i luv winter, but I want to run. i jump-rope and do yoga everyday, but abigail always comes in and gawks at me. i can never be alone. i hate excercising and doing stuff like that round ppl. its just how i am. sigh. im supposed 2 be kleaning up the shoes.

christmas feast

soo ya...just got home from a christmas feast. siiiiigh. they're fun, to an extent. i feel kinda bad that i didnt ever get mel or janette a present. g2 do some work or something. heheheh i totally own @ wii boxing. sam waz getting mad b/c i kicked his butt. lol. josh is such a wonderful friend. he asks me if im coping better everytime i c him and he encourages me. it's like he's new person. he seems so wise. lol everytime he talks to me about anything beyond casual he apologizes incase he's preaching. lol. we're good friends.

skool, of course

I'm beginning to wonder of anyone reads this. HEY, if anyone reads this, plz comment! I could use some excitement, y'know. I don't bite, unless your my friend Mel, and you took something I was "playing with" and refused to give it up. Yes, she took my Muck toy that I was annoying people with. You know, muck, from bob the builder. lol, its what happens when your jonny's sister.
No but really, I could use some company.
Today in math, I got really crazy, which I sometimes do, if you know me. And I was like bounciing outta my seat. Some boy, who is one of my good friends, and the strongest person I know (lost both of his brothers within a few years, both to automotive accidents) decided he was going to be a smart ass, srry bout that, and started throwing little paper balls @ me. I looked at him and one went in my mouth. (ewww) then, a few went down my shirt. (embarressing and made me angry) I was mad, but I couldn't stop laughing b/c he was telling this one joke that we know and it makes me laugh really hard. (has to do with some greek guy cross dressing kinda inside joke, would be funny if you knew him) So I was choking on paper, trying to be mad, laughing, and covering my chest. lol.When I got control of myself I yelled at him. Yelled loudly. He's my friend, but that doesnt mean he can bother me like that. lol. I dont really like being touched. I dont know why, but when people, boys in particulr, touch, me even if it's just their hand on my shoulder, it makes me spaz. yeah I jump. This would distub my mom do read this. Mom, dont worry, it's nothing like that. lol.
Tonight at the dinner table, me and some of my sibling decided it was really funny to make obscure noises, like a moose? lol I was getting the baby down (she's the baby still b/c she's youngest, but she can walk and is very smart.) anyway, i was getting her down and I started laughing so hard that I tripped and fell down against the fridge. It was hilarious. lol.
So yeah, now im doing yoga. I love it. It's realaxing and I feel, de-stressed. even though someone my age shouldnt really get stressed. g2g now, i have to work on an english project.
lol yeah im bad at doing homework. propose that you and me play a game or something, and ill accept even if i havent done any work.

MY PIX!!!!!

Uploaded some pix of our back field and messed with them!!!! xD

games

We had an amazing full moon the other night. It was awesome. It made me want to be a wolf. What would life be like? SHORT STORY!!! LOL my viewpoint from a wolf? lol comical, or serious? that is always the question.
SIGH. Im tired if the weather. It cant decide if it wants to be no snow, or snow! Ohh lets have snow storm. 2 days later, on second thought, i think ill wait for winter. melt all the snow!!!!
so yeah, my views on the weather.
christmas is in ten days. im not sure of what im getting. i dont care, really. i dont seserve anything since i can buy anyone else a friggin present. i dont have money and i never go shopping. so yeah, excuses. gtg. stupid chorus concert soon.

need....fun

I went Ice Skating today. It's the one thing I can do. I'm not good, but I'm not bad. SOOOOOO YEAH!!

report card

yay. good grades. my parents will only care if they're bad.

English-90
Global-99
Algebra-82
Biology-93
French-99
Art-92
band-96
chorus-95
gym-67

LOL! I HATE GYM!!!! no one in my class likes me and Im always stuck with some short girl wh it and idiot and she cant do anything. she is an idiot. i have no friends in gym and the girls laugh at me. i hate it.

outside

i went outside today! it was gr8. I love it so much. i want to snowboard.

mhmhmh

interestin rite? i kno this is dumb. im bored. i need to learn bass but dont kno where to start. any suggestions?

better

better. wat else can i say? i promised myslef that when i was better i would eat hot sauce and perhaps a sub. hmmmmm soup? i love food.

sick

im really sick today. i can hardly sit up. im feverish and really nautious. I can stomach anything. i feel like im gonna die. i didnt even get 2 miss skool 4 it! its the weekend!

but anywwway, mansa and i took some fun pix and more...

lol yeah, we have fun. (i trimmed my bangs after this)

yes, we take everything very seriously.

Ödur and Mansa. J'dore mon souers!

I luv my abilities <3

im sitting here listening 2 to sacrificed sons by dream theater, thinking, omg, this happened. (its about 9/11) it never ceases 2 amaze me that such a thing happened, and im sure it does the same 2 others also.
i finished my first notebook yesterday. itsa five subject & it took me months to fill with stories. the last pg is filled. YAYA!!! xD i hope my writing is promising. tho i finish very little....lol. so now i move onto the black 5 subject, xD and continnue this blog thingy(my other 1)
for art we have 2 think of three words that dscribe us. ok, these are the ones i thought of:
1. Chill, b/c im so very layed back @ skool
2. Metal, b/c i luv metal, my one true luv. jk xD
3. D.T. , guess wat that stands 4?!! DREAM THEATER!!!! of course rite? i was going to do children of bodom but its long and it has to be special font. another i thought of was j.j.a. lol inside joke between me and myself. go figure rite?
so yeah in eglish we have a research project. we get 2 pick watever we want! guess long and hard on wat i thinking of doing! my ideas:
1. the long road to becoming a geisha
2. how children of bodom got their name (i dont think i can stretch that for 3 pgs)
3. d-day
4. how a samurai sword is forged
5. kawasaki ninja motorcycles
hmmmmm i cannot decide. im thinking about the last 1.

School.

HAHAHA I almost broke my nose!!!!! Well maybe not almost...but it seemed close. I was walking through the downstairs hallway, which was pitch black and wham!!! RIGHT INTO THE DOOR FRAME!!! ouch.
Nothing going on in school, and now I'm painting the litle girl's room. I hope I get payed. I need money for ppl's christmas presents. gtg.