ugh. nasty weather.

Today it was absolutely freezing outside, and I had to go running. O.o. but whatever, I have to do it. I have no choice. So anyway, I was running against the wind and it was raining pretty badly. The rain was freezing. It drove against me, making my face numb. My lungs were beginning to throb because it was cold. After I made it through three intersections I turned back and pushed home.
A huge truck drove past, (which it strange on a country road) and soaked me. It was absolutely horrible.
When I got home I had to put pizza in the oven before I could take a shower because it was already 5:45. It usually takes me and hour to run. At least i burned some bloody calories. My goal is to lose at least ten pounds by spring. I set my goal low so I can actually attain it.
On a lighter note. the other day was absolutely beautiful. I ran through the third intersection down my road and to the top of a huge hill. On the top I could see to one side, a green field illuminated by the setting sun. Then a tree line where most of the trees were almost bare. But some of them were quite colorful. Past that there was another rolling hill with beautiful trees. To the other side of me was just tall trees that were deep reds and yellows.
There are the things I find most beautiful about our world. I love it all so much and I hate all the building and developements. Strip malls. It makes me so sad to see so much incredible beauty destroyed. If i had one wish it would be to find a way to change things so it wasnt like that.
It is all hopeless, our world, and I know that it'll all die. It seems as though humans are searching for everyway possible to kill everything that exists. Such a bloody waste. I cetainatly cannot wait for the end, that is or sure. An end to so much sorrow, on this earth. so much pain. It'll all drown in the fire and fall into eternal blackness. It is quite a perculiar thing to think about.