I want someone to listen. I don't want to hear what they think. I have so many horrible thoughts and feelings inside me, and I want to say them without being told I'm wrong. I'm always wrong. I don't have anyone to tell these things, because I'm wrong. I'm a horrible person, I'm never going to graduate nursing school. I'm going to flunk out and owe all my loans back. I'm disgusting and I hate recovery. No one is ever going to love me the way I envision it in my head. They're going to find themselves fascinated by my personality and my appearance, and within a couple months, they'll realize how strange and emotionally untable a person I am, and they'll leave me just like everyone else does. No one sticks around. Not even my friends, it seems like. In the end we only have ourselves, and I don't even want me. I'm fucking useless. I can't do anything right. I can't be the right person for anyone, and I know how I'm going to end. These are the things I can't tell anyone, because they tell me I'm wrong.