I had to upload this! Even If she has stuff on her face and I look terrible, Mansa is super cute!!!

uhhhhhhhhhh headache

I'm waiting off my headache. The weather finally perked up enough for me to start running. Right now I can only run about like four miles, but I'm working on it. by the end of the summer I hope to be able to run about seven or eight. That would be awesome, since I'm training for mount marcy!!!!

mehh

So we're invited to watch twilight somewhere...no way. lol. I wouldn't survive. I think I will stay here and chill. :)

blehh

So feeling better, since so many people read this and care...
This house i stressed up right now, I cannot really describe. It's loud. My dad is stressed from insurance crap, church work, and work work. I don't know what to do. I feel like even if I do work it has no effect on the general outcome of the day. UGH. It seems that it is always crazy and nuts. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I hope I pass all my classes this quarter....GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. Yeah rite. im going in2 lazy mode where my writing is blurred & messy & IM-ish. mehhh. ppl laughed @ my string trick on youtube...lol was soooo dumb.

sickness

I hate being sick it is so humiliating. Being so helpless, not being able to help around the house. things really are nuts and crazy and stressed up and i cannot help. ugh, so guilty.

D*mn

So today I'm really sick. My thoughts are mixed up and my head is whizzing. I want to be better so I dont fail at school. I hate it. I'm scared that i won't pass math. All my hard work is going down the drain 'cause I have to miss school.

Japanese Food

so I finally got to try Japanese food! It was amazing! I really liked it, acutally...except the sushi. I am so excited to go to Japan. Unfortunately the drinking age is 20 so if I go when I plan to then neither me or Phoebe, my friend can try saké...:(

to mom

I appreciate your concern, and I promise we are nothing more than friends. I dont care who reads this. At this point it's fine and really, I feel I can be open about him and I, 'cause there's nothing wrong with friends, as you said. I feel great and really, I just want to say you dont have to be so scared that I'm doing stuff on the computer. I still talk to him, mostly about music, cars, tv, current, stuff, school, and issues. Ok?!! Nothing to worry about at all! I promise you. The reason I write it here is because I hate having theses kind of conversations so PLEASE, just dont mention it! You can just write on here if you have issues or something, but really, I promise you, we are just friends and that's it. It won't ever be anything more. I just wanted you to know that I still talk to him. But you said it would be fine if we are friends, so...yeah.

Happy

So Im really happy right now. I was told a lot of things and made some choices. I'm really happy I can still be friends. We agreed that it might be best. I am a lot happier without my conscience weighing me down. Mom, thanks a lot and I'm really glad that it's ok with you if I'm still friends. The relief is amazing. (oh and i think im getting something in the mail from him) Now I can be open about it. Yes, im friends with Jordan, nothing more, and I'm completely happy like that. YAY! Plus i'll never ever make the mistake I made before.